First wet dream in years

i have been under a no stroking/no orgasm Penance since June 6th. Although i have gone for longer periods without orgasm, last night i had an intense erotic dream that transformed itself into a wet dream.

i believe it is in part due to Lady Helena‘s brilliant file Victim Of The Succubus. Since Conditioning to this File, my dreams have become more and more intense and my deepest fetishes are exploited.

i dreamed that i was lying in a lounge chair about 45 degrees. Domina Shelle, Lady Helena and Miss Andrea (or My Trinity as i like to call them), where behind me. They were taking turns massaging my brains. i could feel Their hands entering my skull and manipulating my mind, rolling it between Their fingers, squeezing it, petting it. At the same time i had this unbelievably good sensation emanating from my Beloved Domina’s PARTS*. i didn’t know who was in my brain at what moment, just that They where taking turns as there was movement behind me. Even though i was in a trance like state i remember asking “What are You doing?” and one of Them answered “Nothing you will be needing.” and that is when i came.

It wasn’t a powerful orgasm, barely, i was mainly leaking when i woke up.

But i felt ashamed.

As instructed today by Miss Andrea:

  1. i will report my dream to Domina Shelle and Lady Helena
  2. i will ask Domina Shelle if it is okay for me to to cum for Her in my dream.

As my Tutor, Miss Andrea had already instructed me to report all my erotic dreams. She wants to know my subconsciousness better.

i learned two important things about my journey last night:

  1. i realize now more then ever that my orgasm are no longer my own, i feel like a property. And an unauthorized/unscheduled orgasm fells like theft.
  2. i really feel like property this morning, in the clearest way i have ever experienced it

These two realizations confirm that my Conditioning is coming (no pun intended) along wonderfully.

* i find the word “cock” not to be gracious and pleasing to the ear. so i begged Miss Andrea that W/we refer to my sexual organs as O/our beloved Domina’s “PARTS” as in “You may stroke Her parts”, “You will Write on Her parts”, etc. PARTS stands for “Propertied Appendage for Reinforcement Training & Submission”. She has accepted this proposal and i have used the term since.

 

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